Friday, November 28, 2008

November 28, 2008

Looking back on all the jobs I've ever had - I think this might be the first time I've ever had to work on the Friday after Thanksgiving. Not that I wish to go shopping - I am not a big shopper, partially b/c I believe that just b/c you have the money, you shouldn't necessarily spend it. I dont care how good the "deals" are - somewhere down the line, that stuff has been marked up and then down a little so you think you're getting a FANTASTIC deal on something you really don't need in the first place - they're still making their money. I've learned over the years that if I buy something b/c it was a great deal and I spent the money I really didn't need to in the first place, something will always come up where I will need that money and I'll wish I hadn't spent it so foolishly. Hence I do not shop on Black Friday, or any other day if it's not something we don't HAVE to have. Good luck to those of you who went out in the middle of the night. =)

Last night was fun - dinner at my aunt's house. There were about 20 ppl there and we had great food. We were both exhausted and left to go home at 7:15......were both sound asleep by 8:30, lol. The last two weeks we've both been asleep by 9:00 at the latest and it's really helped both of us get through our days. It's just so hard when you're both working 11-12 hour days and not going to bed until 11pm and having to get up at 4am and 6am. I will be SO glad to go back to PT work - I cannot wait!

Thursday, November 27, 2008

November 27, 2008

Things I am thankful for today:

- my salvation - I know Christ has taken the many sins of my heart and wiped my slate clean and there is nothing I could ever do to earn that, it's simply a gift to accept and I want to always live my life as a testament of His love.
- my sweetheart husband, who has made all my dreams come true. He works so hard to provide well for us, and he is always showing the true meaning of unconditional love. He accepts me despite my hundreds and flaws and never goes a day without telling me how much he loves me.
- our awesome new church, where we both feel so welcome and at home
- my wonderful mom - one of my best friends and someone I couldn't live without
- my great friends, you guys keep me laughing and sane on those days I just want to scream (you know the ones I'm talking about, lol)
- the fact that I have a job, even though I really don't enjoy it - in this day, it's a blessing just to HAVE a job
- my dogs (go ahead and laugh if you wish); they are always happy to see me, even if i've just locked them in crates for the entire night, lol
-our happy home - I've come to realize how many ppl do not have furnished homes or even homes, or even food, and I am grateful we are able to live a normal life and be happy
- the hopes of our future together - our future children, who I can't wait to meet one day.

Today is a day when I really want to reflect on the things I take for granted every day. These are just a handful of the things I have to be grateful for.

Tonight we're going to my aunt's house for Thanksgiving dinner and I'm looking forward to it. Jay gets off work in less than an hour and will be home by 12:45 and I can't wait to see him and spend time with him. I've spent the last two days deep-cleaning the house and getting a few Christmas decorations out......more or less just to kill time.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!!

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

November 25, 2008

One month until Christmas! Yay! Christmas is my favorite holiday for so many reasons. All the childhood memories of having sleepovers upstairs and still "believing" it was actually Santa carrying the gifts downstairs while we kids were supposedly sleeping, or peeking at the gifts "Santa" hid in the coat closet in the living room (sorry Mom and Dad - we knew the whole time!)

I'm counting the minutes on the clock until this day is over - I have 2 days off and then I am working a half-day on Friday. That will be a first for me.

I'm trying to be better about not complaining about so much. I know I have so much to be grateful for and my life really is wonderful - I just get easily frustrated, especially at work but I'm trying not to let things get to me so easily.

The sermon at our church (Calvary Baptist) this past Sunday was amazing - I was reminded of what it felt like to really be convicted. At our old church, I never heard a message that convicted me or made me really think about things, but this church is SO different. It's Baptist in the way my old church used to be, before they started worrying about stepping on ppl's toes. The pastor gave a really inspiring message and he is never afraid to lay it down, and that he did! It's made me really rethink a lot of things in my daily life and want to be better at it and be a better person.

I'm really looking forward to a couple of days off - I still feel like I need to rejuvenate and catch up on some rest (and some housecleaning!) and my weekends are so short I feel like I never get anything done. By the time Saturday gets here, I just want to relax and spend time with my hubby. On Sundays we're gone all day, so there's no relaxing then. Then Monday is here again and I'm usually in a bad mood for it. So tomorrow - I'm going to clean the house as good as I can so I feel better about it - including deep cleaning the kitchen and bathrooms. I actually enjoy cleaning, when I have the freedom to really take my time doing it. I wouldnt mind doing others' housecleaning (for a slight fee, of course!) when I have time.

On Thursday evening, we're having a big Thanksgiving dinner at my aunt's house - turkey and dressing and all the fixings. (I love it when ppl say that - fixings.) I'm making hashbrown casserole and some kind of dessert....I haven't decided what yet. I thought about making a cake to put in my new cake dish we got as a wedding present, but then I have to remember to bring it home........and then wash it. Sometimes not having a dishwasher really stinks. Jay offered to get me one last year but it would take up a lot of precious cabinet space and I can't afford to spare any with all the junk we have, lol.

Yesterday I mailed my application for the teacher aide position. I'm not holding my breath b/c I know how difficult it is to get those jobs - often they're already filled before they're even posted - it's just a legality to post it. I would love a job like that though - I could have the kind of hours I had at First Pres and still make the kind of money I make now and not be so exhausted and discouraged at the end of every day. Even if I don't get it, I'm going to continue looking for similar-type jobs, b/c I just cannot stay here. I cannot continue to work 50+ hour weeks.

It's almost 3:30.....another 2 hours (maybe less!) and I am FREEEEEEEEE for awhile. Can't wait!

Friday, November 21, 2008

November 21, 2008

So right now I'm a little aggravated (what's new, right?) but for a different reason than usual. I have been collecting things for a family for several weeks and had planned to deliver some of it today when I took a food pounding box to them. I was to pick up the box at our old church and deliver it - I emailed about it two weeks ago and was promised it was mine to deliver - all the way up until this morning. I emailed about the time to pick up and was told someone else was delivering it instead - I was so pissed and I told her so. I explained the situation to her and her response was "well i'm sure they'll just enjoy the other stuff later and maybe next year we'll have better communication."

I hung up.

One of the main reasons we left that church was because of their "communication" or lack thereof. To prove my point, last week we received in the mail a brochure about how we could be "bettering" our tithe (ie: donations) to various parts of the church.

HELLO?!?!?!?!? We haven't even BEEN there in 6 months! Thanks for noticing - even when the letter from my new church arrived to say I was switching memberships. Did anyone even bother to call to ask why we left or be the slightest bit concerned that part of their church family was leaving?

No, of course not. They have 4,000 others to worry about and it's not important when they lose ppl. I really am very upset about the box thing b/c it was so important to me and I was promised and I'm sick and tired of ppl breaking their promises lately.

So.......makes me feel even more convinced we made the right decision in leaving. That church was not for us - it's too impersonal and nobody ever gets to know you on a personal basis.

Anyway, I'm glad it's Friday. Today I only have the baby and it's been nice. I went to the grocery store and got all the things for said-family (b/c I thought I was making a delivery this afternoon) and took it all to my house to box up (which is now not needed until later). Then I met Mom at SCS and tooled around for awhile. Everyone wanted to hold Allie and she screamed every time someone reached for her, lol.

Now we're back at the house and she's napping and I'm waiting for someone to get home so maybe I can leave a little early. I plan to go to the gym before I go home, and sometimes on Friday I can get off a little earlier than dark-thirty. Jay went fishing with my cousin this morning and is going deer-hunting this evening.

This weekend will be fun. Tomorrow night we're eating dinner with friends at their house. Tonight we were supposed to go a Sunday School Christmas dinner but......it's too expensive really and we would be late getting there anyway. So.....Jay went hunting and I'm going to the gym and then home to RELAX.

By the way, if anyone has any medium-large boxes they don't want anymore, I can use them to pack food in for this family. Thanks!

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

November 19, 2008

I got some news yesterday that is all I have thought about since. There are job openings for teacher aides in Greenville County - they hire right after Christmas. The pay is the same as I make now and I would be working 8:30-2:30......half of what I work now.

I've debated for weeks on whether or not to job-search, simply b/c I did promise at least one year to this family. But on the other hand, several things were promised to me and they have either not been upheld or are no longer upheld. Last night was really the straw that broke the camel's back for me. We had important plans last night at 6:30 - plans we've been trying to make for weeks and keep having to cancel b/c of our schedules. Well......I didn't get to leave work until 6:20, so.....I had to cancel those plans AGAIN. And I'll be honest - I cried the whole way home b/c I was so frustrated and tired (and sick, that never helps). I'm so frustrated with not having any life at home b/c 80% of my time is spent at work. I'm not able to make personal appointments or dr appointments unless I take a day off and that's difficult and also unpaid, even though I am supposed to have five personal days.

Jay is so ready for me to get out of this job, b/c I come home so unhappy every day and I'm always tired......and crying, lol. I think he's running out of encouraging things to say. Some days I wonder if I'm not just being a big baby. The job really is super easy and laid-back - the only things that really bother me are the 10-11 hr days and the lack of discipline. I know lessening the hours is not an option, and it's taken me a long time to come to the realization that if I want to be happy in my job, I need to start looking for another one.

On that note, I have felt quite......like nesting....in the last couple of weeks. I'm not saying I'm ready for a baby, b/c the selfish part of me still wants to sleep all night and be able to do what we want to do when we want to do it, pick up and go, etc. But hopefully Jay will be hired on permanently at Cryovac at the beginning of the year and benefits will begin - I will rest easier then knowing we can take the maternity benefits just in case. He has said from the beginning of our marriage that if we end up pregnant before our "plan" then it wouldn't be a big deal - he would be happy about it - but I didn't feel the same way. I felt panicky about how we would provide for a baby, and where the heck we would even put a baby in this house anyway. But lately it's all seemed to melt away (my worries, that is) and if it happens, I'll be shocked for awhile, but it will be okay. I do really want to see what our children would look like (hopefully just like their daddy!) so.......if it happens, it happens. =)

Monday, November 17, 2008

November 17, 2008

This has felt like the shortest weekend ever! I woke up Saturday morning with a cold, so I started downing echinacea like candy in hopes of it going away. It's helped hold it at bay but I can tell it's still coming. Great. Though, I do have to say I've not gotten sick NEARLY as often here as I did at First Pres. I think I've really only gotten two colds in the almost ten months I've been at this job, and both I got from the baby. So I really can't complain - usually I pick up respiratory stuff and colds like crazy.

Anyway, I digressed; I was talking about how short this weekend was. Saturday we went to Hobby Lobby so Jay could get some things he needed to finish his brother's Christmas present. It looks AWESOME! He is so talented with building things. He has it about 90% finished now. I cleaned the kitchen (much needed - I just dont have time when I get home at 7pm every night) and wrapped some Christmas presents in the guest room.

On Sunday we skipped church (I know, heathens) b/c I really didn't feel too great. We lazed around until 11ish when we had to get ready and leave to eat lunch at my parents house. After that, Jay went out behind the house for deer-hunting and I helped Mom put up the Christmas tree. It's all I can do to not decorate for Christmas in October, lol - I'm always rushing it. But it was something to do.

At 5:30ish, I heard a gunshot and shrieked (with excitement) - he got one!! He called me about ten seconds later to bring him his flashlight and help him find it. We looked for blood drops for almost a half hour and then turned around to realize the thing was three feet behind us, lol. I almost stepped on it when I turned around (so I get credit for finding it, right?) He wasn't sure he had hit it since it was pretty much dark when he shot at it, but he definitely hit it - a gutshot. For those of you who don't know what that is - when you shoot and it hits anywhere in the stomach/intestinal area, all the insides blow up into each other and when you gut the thing - it REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKS. I'm still smelling whiffs of it this morning - after washing all the clothes, showering, etc. The remains are long gone - we disposed of those last night after we took it home and cut it up. The dogs went insane over it when we drove up and they started to smell it. We had a nice fight between Stinky and Gavin over who was going to get the ear that Stinky ripped off (such a loving household we own) -- turns out Gavin wins b/c he knows how to fight dirty and run faster.

Then I took it away and they were both unhappy. Bummer.

That was the extent of our weekend - it went by way too quickly and now another week is here and I still feel blah from this congestion. Just 8 more days until I get a small, but much-needed break for Thanksgiving. . I can't seem to catch up, so I really need those days to catch up.

Still thinking about job-hunting. Maybe after New Year's if Jay is hired on there permanently and his pay jumps up.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

November 12, 2008

I deleted this b/c it just pure ranting. =)

Monday, November 10, 2008

November 10, 2008

Today is my sweet little Gavin's birthday! He is 5 years old today.....a day I wasn't sure we'd ever see due to the amount of crap/garbage he eats and still manages to digest. So happy birthday, my sweet furbaby!

This weekend was just the relaxing kind of time I needed.....to get away from work and daily routine. On Friday night my parents came over for dinner and that was fun - their first time eating at our house. We had shrimp scampi, baked potatoes, and salad.

Saturday we slept in and it was GREAT. I really needed a good sleep. Jay worked on the brakes on his truck pretty much all day. What should have been a 2-hr job turned into a 6-7 hr job b/c something wasn't going right and he had to make a couple trips to the hardware store. (I wont begin to try to explain what went wrong b/c I don't understand the first thing about it, lol.) We ate an early dinner (homemade lasagna) Saturday night and watched a couple movies that night, just relaxing.

Sunday we went to church, then to my parents for lunch. Then we (like crazy ppl) left for Bass Pro (in Atlanta) at 1:30p, when we had to be back for nursery duty at church at 6p. We made it to BP a little after 3p, and browsed for a half hour, then got back in the truck to come home. We made it though - pulled into the church parking lot at 5:57. I had a good time with the babies/toddlers, but he was uneasy the whole time. He said it feels really awkward when it's other ppl's kids, and he just wants to "learn" with our own kids instead. So now I have a whole month of Sunday night nursery duty to myself.......he's going to go hunting behind my parents' house on Sunday nights. That's okay though - we definitely have different interests at times and though we do a LOT of things together, we don't have to do everything together and if he doesnt like nursery, that's really okay. I do understand. =)

It sucked getting up for work this morning. Jay had to leave by 5am since he's on day shift for the next five weeks. Baylee was making such a fuss to be in the kitchen with him instead of the bedroom with me that I finally just got up, too. It was nice to spend a few minutes together before he had to go.......and it left me with two hours to kill before I had to leave for work. So I cleaned a little (can't resist!) and showered and just relaxed before I had to leave.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

November 5, 2008

Jay starts on the day shift next Monday, for his job training for his new position (praise the Lord for that opening so quickly!!) He will be on day shift, 6a-6p, for five weeks. Just long enough for us to get into a "normal" work routine before it all changes again right at Christmas time. But I'm grateful for the promotion and for the 5 weeks of evenings we'll get together. =)

My dad does not have diverticulitis, so it seems. For the last three months or so, he's had a lot of stomach pains and for the last few weeks, his dr has had him on massive antibiotics to fight an infection that was never there...... Same dr's office that misdiagnosed Tim with "muscle pain" almost four years ago. I'm not feeling much comfort in that office anymore.... So dad is going to another specialist to see if they can find out the cause of his pain. **prayer**

I'm trying to upload some of my wedding pictures on Facebook and I'm having to do 5 at a time.....seems this may take awhile, lol.

I'll end this by saying I dont want to talk about the election choice b/c everyone is and I'm tired of hearing about it. We're already screwed.....it's just a matter of time until he is assassinated and we are left with the village idiot to lead us. Good times.

Monday, November 3, 2008

Several things to say in this post. Firstly, I have the most amazing husband in the world. He got home at 6:30 this morning after working a 12 hour shift and the first thing he did was check out my car. It's been having transmission (uh-oh) issues for a few weeks and went bonkers on me last night when I supposed to be on my way to church for nursery. I got one mile down the road and it started acting up more than usual, so I had to go back home. He checked out the engine and drove it for awhile......it's going to have be checked out by a mechanic, probably. Great - a couple hundred bucks we don't really have. Hopefully it's not something huge.....like a new transmission.

Secondly - I saw the DUMBEST commercial last night and I couldnt stop laughing. Check out www.getsnugglie.com to see the product - it's supposed to another version of a blanket - with sleeves so you don't have to take your arms out from under your blanket to answer the phone (heaven forbid). It's so dumb - why don't you either turn up the heat or....gasp....put on a jacket? I cant believe people actually try to market such ridiculous things, and furthermore, surely people don't buy those?

This weekend was so nice - relaxing.....I didnt even get out my pjs on Saturday. I cleaned the house while Jay was at work, stayed up super-late so I could talk to him on his break at 2:30 (yes, a.m.), then we both slept in until almost 3pm. I love relaxing days like that. And believe it or not, I was actually not devastated to get up for work this morning. Shocking, I know.

18 work days until Thanksgiving!!!